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Useless

Been pretty much completely useless for the last several weeks. I know I didn't rest the way I wanted to, but my profound inability to focus on ANYTHING productive is ridiculous. I can't let this keep going. I'm getting really behind both in stuff I need and want to do, and it makes me so angry at myself.

Had a couple bad spells of depression pop up too. It comes and it goes, as it probably will for the rest of my life. But it makes everything I do feel particularly pointless. And when I'm already struggling to be productive, that makes me even more useless than before. Right now I'm having a hard time even figuring out what to focus my energy on, what would be the best use of my creative energy and effort, but that uncertainty is making me do NOTHING out of fear of wasting time doing the WRONG THING. Useless.

Resolving here to get my ass in gear. On SOMETHING, even if it's not the best use of my time or energy. I've got the Bare Bones staged reading of Base Instruments this Friday evening, which is great. I'm glad to get that play out there, and it's something to get myself going. It's a good play, the best Mrs. Hawking play so far, and maybe it'll energize me to do more work.

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About Me

My name is Phoebe. I'm Boston area theater professional and English professor focused in writing, acting, directing, and modeling. I'm known for having lots of interests, lots of opinions about those interests, and a very high estimation of the value thereof. This blog is for talking about whatever's on my mind, from my daily life to my activities to musing on any number of abstract topics. Thanks for taking the time to read.

My productions:

Upcoming Productions:



MRS. HAWKING part 2 and 3


at the Watch City Steampunk Festival 2016

presented by The Chameleon's Dish

Vivat Regina
by Phoebe Roberts

at 2PM

and

Base Instruments
by Phoebe Roberts

at 6PM

Saturday, May 13th 2017
at 274 Moody Street, Waltham, MA

Other Achievements:

"The Tailor at Loring's End" screenplay
Quarter Finalist in the Final Draft Big Break Screenwriting Competition 2013

"Adonis" screenplay
Top Ten Percent in the Bluecat Screenwriting Contest 2015

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