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No shame for Lent

With everything that's been going on, Mardi Gras and Ash Wednesday have already come and gone without my realizing. Even so, I want to do something for Lent. I thought about it and I've decided that I'm going to give up being ashamed of myself. I have spent so much time and energy trying to hide things that I'm struggling with, to stop myself from displays of emotionality that I'm afraid people will think are unseemly. But I feel like I shouldn't do that right now. It might have saved me some judgment from people, but I shouldn't care about people who would judge me for being in pain over legitimate struggles in my life, and I think it did much more to trap me into having no way to deal with those struggles. Also, I just don't have the strength to pretend about that stuff. I have to get myself through this without wrecking my whole life, I need to have fewer things to worry about in order to do it. I have more important things to do than keep things that have hurt me secret.

This will be a big shift for me. It might end up being easier to do things the way I always have. But this also might help makes things easier in the process. I don't know. But I'm going to try it, in hopes that getting a little healthier will help me get through.

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v_cat
Feb. 19th, 2013 04:41 pm (UTC)
This sounds like an awesome idea. Wish id thought of it years ago. Good luck! Also people will judge no matter what we do, so fuck 'em
khyros
Feb. 19th, 2013 04:52 pm (UTC)
YES. Soo much validation.
twilighttremolo
Feb. 19th, 2013 06:56 pm (UTC)
What a good goal. Good luck!
laurion
Feb. 19th, 2013 09:28 pm (UTC)
!Buena Suerte!
katiescarlett29
Feb. 19th, 2013 11:39 pm (UTC)
I'm really proud of you. <3
natbudin
Feb. 20th, 2013 05:14 am (UTC)
+1,000,000
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My name is Phoebe. I'm Boston area theater professional and English professor focused in writing, acting, directing, and modeling. I'm known for having lots of interests, lots of opinions about those interests, and a very high estimation of the value thereof. This blog is for talking about whatever's on my mind, from my daily life to my activities to musing on any number of abstract topics. Thanks for taking the time to read.

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Upcoming Productions:



MRS. HAWKING part 2 and 3


at the Watch City Steampunk Festival 2016

presented by The Chameleon's Dish

Vivat Regina
by Phoebe Roberts

at 2PM

and

Base Instruments
by Phoebe Roberts

at 6PM

Saturday, May 13th 2017
at 274 Moody Street, Waltham, MA

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"The Tailor at Loring's End" screenplay
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"Adonis" screenplay
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