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Struggling with thesis writing

Struggling a lot with my thesis writing. I took many of your suggestion and told my adviser about some of the mess in my life (specifically the stress of my mother's illness), who was understanding in the extreme, and has practically let me out of all obligation to do any decent work. But I couldn't live with myself if I punked on this. Still, I'm having a hard time. My confidence has really been shaken. I knew the new stuff I'd handed in wasn't great, but my teacher didn't seem to think much of my Tailor of Riddling Way screenplay either, calling it "a Hallmark movie." That really cut me, and I'm still reeling. I knew it wasn't perfect, but I thought it was pretty good. One thing I've really been worrying about is my seeming inability to gauge my own work, as my teachers' opinions rarely seem to match up with mine. What am I going to do in the future when I don't have someone to tell me when something is no good?

But I'm having a lot of trouble figuring out what to do. I have no idea how to rescue the work I've already done. She's offered to let me start something new, but I don't know what that could even be, and I'm terrified it's going to be just as bad. Especially since I can't seem to tell good from bad! And just throwing something onto the page backfired in the last couple of submissions. I just can't hand in something that lame again. But I'm getting paralyzed, and I'm running out of time.

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acousticshadow2
Apr. 3rd, 2013 10:08 pm (UTC)
Just a suggestion...

Why not write about something you feel... Don't try to write about grand themes or just throwing things on paper. Why not write about the things that are bothering you right now? Why not write about the pain of having to deal with a loved one who is dying? It might be too painful for you, but often the best work artist and authors can do is born out of their pain. Maybe it won't be any good, but it will be authentic. Stop trying to impress your teachers or your audience. Stop caring what people think of your work and instead focus on transferring all of your struggles and pain and emotions with being a grad student and the pain of your mother's sickness into what you are feeling right now. Maybe you can't focus on your work because you are focusing on what is important... the issues in your life. So make your work about the issues in your life. No pretensions... just honest emotions.

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My name is Phoebe. I'm Boston area theater professional and English professor focused in writing, acting, directing, and modeling. I'm known for having lots of interests, lots of opinions about those interests, and a very high estimation of the value thereof. This blog is for talking about whatever's on my mind, from my daily life to my activities to musing on any number of abstract topics. Thanks for taking the time to read.

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