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Productive procrastinator

My stress level is through the roof right now. I'm trying to manage several difficult things (some of which I don't feel able to talk about for various reasons, some I'm just too burnt out to go into in detail) and I feel like everything is teetering on the edge of disaster. I've started to get a little bit of a handle on them, which is somewhat reassuring, but I'm not out of the woods yet.

What amused me is I've always been a productive procrastinator, so in the face of all the stuff I needed to manage that was stressing me out, you know what I did? I found myself drawing designs for a fashion line. I mostly certainly will never have the time or wherewithal to make it. But it's been in my head, at least the ideas of it, for a long time. And it relaxed me to switch gears and be creative on something that wasn't such a struggle. I can't necessarily affect some of the things that are overwhelming me, and I didn't feel in the headspace do any writing, so I found myself doing something completely fresh to try and reset myself.

I actually kind of like what I came up with. I've always wanted to design a high-fashion collection with a distinctly post-apocalyptic aesthetic. I probably never will actually make it-- my sewing skills are probably not quite up to par, and what would I do with it even if I did? --but the ideas never stopped percolating. I drew six looks in a couple of hours. And they weren't bad! They'd need a LOT of editing, I think I combined some of the pieces wrong and some of the foundations are not as carefully chosen as they could be, but the bones I think are there.

I just wish I could draw better. I can see them so clearly in my mind, but I am not very good at expressing them on paper. I think I'd be able to better refine and clarify my ideas if I could visually represent them more accurately, given what a visual learner I am. Maybe I just need to keep drawing them until the practice improves them to the point where they're useful. Again, I doubt I'll ever actually do anything with them. But it was a really refreshing change of pace to try something from a different part of my brain that didn't have so many challenges attached to it.

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About Me

My name is Phoebe. I'm Boston area theater professional and English professor focused in writing, acting, directing, and modeling. I'm known for having lots of interests, lots of opinions about those interests, and a very high estimation of the value thereof. This blog is for talking about whatever's on my mind, from my daily life to my activities to musing on any number of abstract topics. Thanks for taking the time to read.

My productions:

Upcoming Productions:

MRS. HAWKING part 2 and 3

at the Watch City Steampunk Festival 2016

presented by The Chameleon's Dish

Vivat Regina
by Phoebe Roberts

at 2PM


Base Instruments
by Phoebe Roberts

at 6PM

Saturday, May 13th 2017
at 274 Moody Street, Waltham, MA

Other Achievements:

"The Tailor at Loring's End" screenplay
Quarter Finalist in the Final Draft Big Break Screenwriting Competition 2013

"Adonis" screenplay
Top Ten Percent in the Bluecat Screenwriting Contest 2015

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